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I want…

I usually try to keep things very upbeat on my blog, but today I am just going to spit all this out for fear that if I don’t, it will explode. That just wouldn’t be pretty, would it? Here goes…


I want… To not be stressed. I stress about everything. It can’t be good for me, right?

I want… To be able to take a real vacation with hubby. Just the two of us. For more than one day. (note to self: buy winning lottery ticket tonight)

I want… For it to be fall. Seriously, I’m done with this awful heat and humidity.

I want… To enjoy the beaches that we live so close too. Other than my Sunday morning run over the causeway bridge, the closest I’ve gotten to the beach was a survey I did for work the other day . It looked so awesome. I want to feel the sand between my toes. How sad is it that we live 7 minutes from the beach and never go?

I want… To live in a drama-free world. Drama is not  necessary and doesn’t get anyone anywhere.

I want… To not have to work quite so hard, maybe just for a little bit. It’s not in my genes to NOT work, but it sure would be nice to just sit back and not worry about how everything will get done for a bit.

I want… To sleep a full 8 hours. Please, Blue and Ozzie, can you maybe just let that happen every once in awhile? Mommy loves you, but she needs her sleep.

I want… To find the off-switch for my brain. It does not need to always be on, especially at night.

I want… To not worry. I worry about everything. Somehow things still work out, but the energy I exert worrying is exhausting.

I want… To feel like all the hard work we are doing will pay off one day. And I’m talking work, not weight loss. We bust our butts at work, please tell me one day we will reap the rewards of it.

I want… To wake up in the morning without anxiety. I had anxiety a several years ago and finally got it under control. I feel like it’s slowly creeping back in… I know stress brings it on, so I need to control that stress to get rid of the anxiety. The thought of anxiety makes me more anxious.
That’s better… Seriously, I’m not sure why everything has to seem so hard sometimes. This is why I so strongly focus on myself when I’m not working. I NEED to run, otherwise it’s likely I would need an anti-depressant. I NEED to take care of myself. I NEED to do things that I enjoy on my off-time. I NEED to not be negative because that won’t get me anywhere.


always remember


Thank you for listening to my rambling… What would you like to get off your chest today? I am all ears since you listened to me!


  1. Kat

    I want to be unstressed like you!
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    1. It would be so nice to live in a world without stress, Kat!

  2. Girl, why do you think I run so much? It’s total stress relief. Hang in there & keep working out, it’s a natural anti-depressant. I know a thing or two about anxiety & depression myself & the exercise has been a HUGE help for me too.

    1. Thanks Beth! It really does help. If I wasn’t running, I would be laying on the couch, wallowing in misery. That’s not good for anyone and it certainly doesn’t help. So I will keep running my heart out to keep that stupid anxiety away!

  3. I want a job that I love that pays me very well. I want my son to learn how to handle his emotions. I want my husband to be more of an extrovert.
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    1. Thank you so much for sharing your wants, Jenny. I am crossing my fingers for that interview of yours!

  4. I want to not be as stressed, to know that my side biz is going to turn into a full-time gig, to be present & to practice more gratitude. Thx for being honest & sharing your reality.

    1. Being present is a good one, Danielle. I practice that in yoga, I should do more of it the rest of the time. Thank you so much for sharing what you are currently struggling with.

  5. Awww Nanci (((hugs))). I am so with you hun. You know that you and I both stress and suffer from anxiety. I discovered my cure (prayer combined with self-talk) a few years ago and it works almost 100% of the time IF I LET IT!!! And those are the key words. A few of your WANTS should be NEEDS because as they always say: you can’t take care of anyone else until you take care of yourself. I love you and want only the best life has to offer for you!!!
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    1. Oh I know, Karen. We both have dealt with that evil anxiety. And you are SO right, some of my “wants” should be “needs”. Very good point. Love you too! :)

  6. Take a deep breath, do some yoga, make your “sister” (whoever it may be) watch the kids and just have a you day.

    I totally get like this all the time and we just need somebody to tell you that you’re not alone, it’s all worth it but to enjoy life. Sometimes work can wait, as much as they don’t think they do.

    Peace & Serenity!
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    1. Thank you, Bianca! It’s hard to let work wait when I’m the boss, lol. I just need to try and balance everything better.

  7. I’m so sorry, Nanci. I know the feelings of worry and anxiety all too well, and they are not at all fun. I hope you’re able to get a chance to relax. I want many of the same things as you.
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    1. Thank you, Jina. Worry and anxiety stink. We should all be able to relax more often.

  8. Hi Nanci, I am so sorry to hear about all the stress and anxiety you’re feeling. I know exactly how you feel. I’m glad, however, that you were able to get out some of the stress through this post! I feel like blogging always takes off some of the edge. I hope things get better for you! [:
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    1. You are so right, Kriselle – blogging about it does help. And when I receive comments like yours, it makes me realize I’m not alone. Thank you so much for reading and commenting!

  9. Hey Nanci! Years ago I learned that we are unlimited and the only things holding us back are our attachments to things and that wanting anything is pretty low on the scale. There’s a universal joke that whatever you are wanting that’s just what you can’t get. And that stuff you don’t want, that’s what you get. Stinks I know but it’s true. It’s really hard to let go of wanting stuff but if you can you might be pleasantly surprised with what you get.

  10. I want it to be Fall too! I could repeat September and October over for the entire year. I want more time to complete things. If I didn’t have to sleep it would be PERFECT haha
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  11. I want to be healthier and thinner and over all happier with life………………
    Although your list of wants is pretty good
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  12. I can completely relate to this post. I don’t know why I worry and stressso much either. Like you said eeverything always works itself out. I think you are an inspiration so you keep swimming over there and remember everything will be A-ok!!

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